Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Maybe it's fate...

"Accept the things to which fate binds you, and love the people with whom fate brings you together, but do so with all your heart. "

Over the last three years (to be exact) I have had the absolute worst luck when it came to dating. My last relationship ended in March of 2008. It was possibly the best & worst relationship I have ever been in. It ended pretty mutual which is always a good thing, I suppose. After my relationship with (we will name him A - for privacy purposes) ended I didn't really ever want to be with anyone. It wasn't because I was still hung up on him but moreso because I just (in the beginning) wanted to be single. The first year of being single was fun and drama free. I went out with my girls a lot and just had a carefree life. I really did enjoy it but now it's been three years and I am no longer loving it.

I have noticed (thanks to facebook) that a lot of girls and guys that I graduated high school with are now married and having children and living that happily ever after life. In a way, I am jealous. I want that fairytale life.

The beginning of last year I joined a dating website called PlentyOfFish.com and also OkCupid.com. I never in a million years thought that I would have to stoop to that level. Beforehand, I never had any issues finding potentional men to date. While being on POF, I had met a few guys that I thought I would give a chance and actually meet. So I went on a few dates but the first dates never worked out so there was never a second date to follow.

One day on POF I met this one kid (we will call him J - for privacy purposes). J and I went on a few dates and things seemed to be working very well. Until the day that he told me he had to move to the West Coast for work. I was completely bummed out - the first guy that I was actually into was leaving for months. I knew that it wouldn't work out considering I don't do long distance relationships. I gave it a shot though because I was really into him. I ended up visiting him on the West Coast in August of 2010 for a week. I flew out there all by myself with hopes of things actually working and they ended up not working at all.

After that relationship crashing & burning I gave up hope completely. I deleted both my OkC & POF accounts. I continued going out with my girls and meeting strange men at bars. Until March of 2011 when I decided to give OkC one last chance. I had only had the account for a month when I met S (we will call him S - for privacy purposes).

It honestly felt like fate.

At first I was very hesitant to actually talk to him because he lives down South. Then I noticed on his profile that he was moving up to CT in June. At that point, I knew I had to give him a shot. In the beginning, I had no idea that it would actually get this far. I never thought that after that one innocent message we would still be talking today. Before he came along I felt so unlucky that nothing amazing would cross my path again. I gave up all hope at finding a nice, mature man. Until him.

Obviously, I don't want to rush things but I know how excited I am for him to move up here. I am currently counting down the days. I know once it reaches single digits the butterflies will start cluttering to my belly. I don't in any way want to get my hopes up - but I feel like he may be the one I have been searching for.

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

Til next time.
Love & Kisses.

Monday, May 30, 2011

Sparrows & Roses..

This weekend has been extremely relaxing and exactly what I needed. This is the first weekend that I did not go to a bar, concert or wild & crazy house party. It feels good to have been 100% sober all weekend. As much as I don't want this weekend to end, I am excited to go back to work and see my babies!

Next week is only a four day week and that does make me very happy!  If you are curious to what I do for work -- well I work full-time in an Educational Center in a class with one year olds. It's a job where you need to have a lot of patience, dedication and love. I have been working with children since I was seventeen. I have worked with children from the ages of one to elementary schoolers.

My dream job is to be a celebrity makeup artist. It's a path that I have wanted to travel down for a couple years now (alright, alright maybe since high school). When I was a senior in high school, I went to classes at John Casablanca's Modeling Agency. I graduated the classes and never got anything from it. As much as I love being in front of the camera A.K.A being the center of attention, I would not mind being backstage either. I love make-up, fashion and shopping. We'll see what happens.

I have been thinking a lot about how fast summer is coming up and how I would actually like to be able to enjoy this summer and do a bunch of awesome things. Last summer, besides going to Cali, was pretty much a complete dud. I didn't really do much and I want this summer to be different. I have been thinking about maybe doing some small roadtrips to different places like Cape Cod(MA), Wildwood(NJ), Newport (RI) and etc. Plus, I would like to do more outdoorsy stuff besides the beach like - hiking, gilette castle, mini golf, etc.

Also this summer I would like to spend less money and save more money towards getting a new car. I have a really big issue with not being able to save money. Thankfully now I have a savings account so hopefully that will help.

Only 20//19 more days til my Penguin is in CT.

Til next time.

Love & Kisses!

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Insert Clever Title Here.

Hello fellow bloggers.

 I have been contemplating starting a blog for about two months now. I've finally decided to jump on the band wagon. I haven't exactly decided what this blog will contain - let's just take it day-by-day.

What's Love4PDA mean?

I wanted my "username" to be JustAnotherBlonde but apparently that was already taken. I put the first clever thing to come to my mind.

Love for "Public Display of Affection" aka PDA.

It's really not as clever as I think it is.

Honestly, my whole reason for wanting to start a blog was to really be able to have a place to write. I refuse to keep a journal and I prefer writing (typing) than actually writing (pen & paper).

I don't expect to have a lot of followers but it's more for me than anyone else.

Til next time!

Love & Kisses.